i promise you that change is coming soon and the heavy mass in your head will dissolve and surfaces will declutter and walls will be a clean icy white. 

i feel something clawing on me from inside. i pick up and put down the phone several times but a phone call and a dinner date is not going to help with anything. i rarely feel the need for company, and when i do i’m ashamed of being weak.

坐在42路最后面，过了阜成门，冬日清澈凛冽的阳光透过街边的建筑物和枯树，忽闪忽闪光影交错地斜插进空荡荡的车厢里。车前行，万花筒光影从车头到车尾唰唰地流转，我好像也穿越了什么时光隧道，回到了一个属于自行车、棉袄和胡同，却不曾属于过我的老北京。

some things i want for the new year:

be a bigger person, especially toward my family

read and watch movies and learn

exercise more regularly

write more on tumblr

figure out how to get someone to help me buy retina macbook

ok these sound so vague and stupid except the last one. maybe i’ll just try to make someone help me accomplish the last one.

街道适宜的宽度，是路两边的树向内伸展，树枝末梢恰好能触碰，像对话似的交换枝桠片叶，坐车途经这样的街道就像在透亮的拱道里穿梭。能够对话的街两边，河两岸，山两头才是适宜的距离。

在吉安青原色办公室外的瓦罐汤店，每次我都会点一盘炒粉喝一碗冰绿豆汤。老板把绿豆汤盛得满满的，每次他端碗时大拇指都会接触到汤水，端上桌时冰绿的汤面会漂着几片油膜，吃之前得小心刮掉。

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just the beginning of the possibility of quitting my job made me so excited i even had an actual animated conversation with both my parents and still feel a bit fluttery. but today the company made me a stack of 100 name cards, with the pompous title of “director” on it. for a second there i felt sorry for betraying it, but that thought was soon gone of course.